Mental Conflict

Okay in the moment when i really hate the way you treat me , i'll close my eyes and imagine to kill myslef . Then i realize how much it'd hurt my lovely mom .. Hurm life suck when you always treat me like a kindergarten child . I never understand what you want from me yeah i know i'm not a good son but please give me some spaces of freedom can you ? Why you must treat me like that ? Some of question that i never get the answer seriously i don't know why ? Sometimes it hurt the most but life must goes on and i feel like i'm not your child . You never ask me in a good way you always curl up why ? why ? what should i do to make you feel better ? Study ? Oh i know i'm not good enough as my cousin right ? But don't you realize that i'm 17 teen now ? and one more thing i'll study hard for this spm examination but please give me some space to be a teenagers can you ? and this is what i'm think " Teen ages exposed to either stress physically and mentally that inflicting mental conflict . The question is whether it should be every teen life conflict? Are adolescent who did not directly faces the conflict of the soul ". The answer is inside your mind hurmm .. Seriously this mean deep in my heart and soul i'm so sorry if i frustrated you but the true's is this is how i feel sorry again . :'(